Honesty????

Hmmm, how should I start with? Well, FB (facebook) is one of those 'it' thing today. Connecting with all your colleagues in school, college days, formerly working colleague is fun. Getting to interact with them, knowing what, where they r is interesting....but there's one incident yesterday that make me realised some people they never appreciate what they have in life.

Let me tell you, I have a fren in my UITM time in Manjung Perak. Those days he tried to make me 'special' in other words (girlfren la). At that time I wasn't aiming for that as I'm only 18 yrs old. I'm more to having fun, meet new frens...etc...etc...
We were connected by FB few days back & he told me he still single....so he did asked me to introduce to some of my 'single' frens & I did that.

Well, I've not gone through his photo profile when he said that he is open for a relationshiop. So, I did it yesterday.....& OMG!!!! He's married with 3 kids!!!Why is man like that? They like to tell lies? They never want to reveal the truth...honesty??? Arrrgghhh, I was soo piss off yesterday & decided to 'slam' him at the wall through my sms. He said he was trying to ask me whether have I looked through his photos. Directly, why he don't wanna tell the truth?? Why? Why wait untill I found out in not a nice way? Is he afraid? Is he try to be playful with me?

I hate people that are not honest to themselves. Why hiding? When you have a family that supported you...why you wanna denying this? Menyampah betul aku.....I told him it doesn't matter whether he's married, divorced or single...I will still be his frens...but...arrrghhhhh

Men....when you r not truthfull to yourself, who else going to? Ask yourself..

Sorrryyyyyy

Sorryyy..my frens. Hv not been updating my blog for quite sometimes. Huhh...tide up with a lot of things. Sometimes don know where to start. I like the quote that my fren said " It may not be your fault for being down, but it is your fault for not getting up"...That's me now...in this situation... arrghhhh...

When u r down, everything is not good for you. Everything!!!! Your life feel sucks at all time....(at this moment la). U can't even carry yourself. U feel like you r not doing the best in your life. U feel like this is not what you want in your life. U feel like you do not live your life good enough. This is not my life????? Wow...that's sucks....

There r times when u think, u wanna start all over again.
There r times when u wanna do the things that u should do before.
There r times when u think is this the life that u've wanted.
Am I being selfish???? Or is this life just not good enough for me????

Why?? I am not satisfied with my life now???? Why??? Allah did bless me for giving me a husband that understand me, a baby girl that I care & love soo much. I should be thankful, 'bersyukur' atas apa yang telah dilimpahkan oleh NYA.

Why am i feeling like this? I know myself...I am not doing the right thing at this moment. I just don know why. I've taken the wrong lane....i think. It's a sin when you do not cherrish the things that Allah already given to you in life. There is something missing....I don know what. Arrrghhhh....